I used to be so obsessed with makeup that I couldn’t step out of my house without it. Looking back, I see it was tied to low self-esteem and a lack of confidence in the truth that I am beautifully made by God. I even thought that Psalm 139:14—“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made”—was just something “ugly people” said to encourage themselves.
For context, I had severe acne that left many dark spots on my face. Makeup became my way of covering up those spots, but deep down, it was connected to a spirit of seduction.
When I joined God’s Lighthouse in 2017, God began to deliver me from the belief that I was ugly. Slowly, He started breaking the stronghold of makeup over my life. After a particular deliverance session in 2017, the hold of the spirit of seduction was broken. Pastor began addressing me directly during that season, specifically instructing me to stop wearing artificial lashes, which was one of the last things I was clinging to for confidence.
In May 2018, during a church retreat, I had a dream where the Lord appeared to me and instructed me to stop wearing makeup altogether. I woke up shaking, terrified of what that meant. However, over time, God gave me the courage and strength to obey. I went from being unable to look at my bare face in the mirror to confidently seeing myself as beautiful, just as God made me. Now, when someone compliments me, I can joyfully say, “I know, right?”
Deliverance from the spirit of seduction also brought freedom from other desires, such as wanting piercings in various places and wearing brightly colored wigs—purple, blue, red, grey, you name it. These cravings began to fade as my mindset changed through Pastor’s constant teaching of God’s Word.
Pastor also addressed my clothing choices. I used to wear short dresses without realising how inappropriate they were. I recall attending the prophetic intercessory team meetings in 2018 wearing short dresses, unaware of how they looked or made me appear, or the effect they had on others. I was rebuked openly one day, and it felt like my eyes were opened. I could finally see how short my skirt was.
In 2019, after sharing a testimony during a meeting, I wore a dress which was above my knees without realising it, and especially because such clothes were what I liked. Afterwards, Pastor’s wife approached me, saying she had been tempted to call me out to give me a wrapper to cover myself when I was testifying. That moment was a turning point. I began checking my dress length in the mirror and asking others for feedback before I left for wherever I was going. Gradually, I became comfortable with wearing dresses that went below my knees.
Today, I am grateful to God for transforming me. I now believe I am a natural beautiful, fearfully and wonderfully made. I no longer rely on makeup, wigs, or short dresses for confidence. God has taught me to see myself through His eyes, and I am confident in His creation.
I see other girls dressing as I used to, and I know they can be saved too. My testimony reminds me of God’s faithfulness in my life. May God’s name be praised forever. Amen!
© GAM 2025
